you just don't know how it hurts me, how deep i fall, how hard i try to get up, how i hate you, how i miss you, how i hold on my faith, how i trying hard to sleep, how i want to disappear, how hard i don't want to catch your face, how i can't forget that day, how it makes me dumped, how i am ashamed, how many tears has ran out my eyes, and how i can't deny that i love you still.